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Post by [Taboo. on Oct 10, 2010 14:30:10 GMT -5
[bg=000000][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true]Where are you going? The essa asked herself with a heavy, outward sigh as her feet carried her once again in some random direction. It seemed like lately her head was always in the clouds; she would start to thing about things, presently happening things, and thoughts of the past--Lorelei’s thoughts--filled her head. It had been long enough, Taboo had put these things behind her.
She had “killed” her former self, starting again as soon as her pups had been born dead. Lorelei had been put to rest a long time ago, the sorrow and heartache should be nothing but a distant memory. But somehow they persisted, refusing to go away until she stopped running and faced the survivor’s guilt that eat at the back of her mind.
Taboo refused; she would keep running for the rest of her life if she had too.
But it would help if she were to stop physically running from mental phobias. The crimson femme would be so preoccupied by her thoughts that by the time she realized she was actually moving, she was in a completely different place from where she had started. This time… she thought, coming to a stop to drag her yellow eyes over the terrain, I have no idea where the hell I am…
This same thing had happened only days ago, when she had wandered to a place within the pack territory and had run into Nahani, the alpha’s rebellious son. Tank was rather strict on him, attacking him sometimes for no reason… Taboo assumed if was for good cause… but she had spent time with Nahani, just the two of them, and from what she had gathered from his personality thus far was nowhere near how she had first thought. He was… charming… in his own little way. But what dampened her mood what the suspicion that it was the feelings the dark brute stirred within her that was causing these relapses in her memories and emotions.
This time, however, Taboo was not within the pack land--a quick intake of the surrounding sights and smells told her that instantly. It was green… endless green stretching on for miles, rippling all the way up to the horizon. What had she gotten herself into this time?
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Post by §Tank§ on Oct 10, 2010 14:44:31 GMT -5
[bg=14252f][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true] You were once my one companion . . . You were all that mattered . . . Wishing you were somehow here again . . .
Purple, back and white form lay huddled in the small clearing of the trees in the land, torso rising and falling with each steady
breath. Ice blue eyes lay behind purple lids, twitching every so often with her dreams. They weren't bad dreams at all. They were happy dreams, of when Nahani was still with her. Before anything bad had happened. Her dreams were figures that could only be described as her wishful thinking of what may have been. But in her dreams, it was only she and him.
Wishing you were somehow here again . . . Wishing you were somehow near . . . Sometimes it seemed, if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here . . .
Cheis' leg twitched in her sleep, though her eyes remained closed. Nothing too noticeable was happening in her dream. It wasn't even describable. It was just... Pure happiness. It seemed as though nothing bad could happen to her while she held on fast to her dreams. Nothing could bother her, and the biting wind went ignored. She breathed steadily still, ears twitching at the crunching of leaves behind her. It's nothing, her dream self told her, beckoning her closer. Stay here.
Wishing I could hear your voice again . . . Knowing that I never would . . . Dreaming of you won't help me to do all that you dreamed I could . . .
She stayed sleeping and soon awoke to the sound of another paws racing towards where she was sleeping. She rose up and looked around. She could see a red black and white wolf racing around the plains. She flicked her ears and then yawned slightly. She soon got to her feet and stretched and shook her pelt down into place. She flicked her ears once more and then shifted her shoulders as she began to head toward the other wolf that came threw.
You were once my one companion . . . You were all that mattered . . . Wishing you were somehow here again . .
She came to view the wolf even closer, Female she told herself. She looked at the female. She had the strong scent of male and alpha's scent. She was not alpha though, she was something lower but not to low. She sighed and then shook her head and walked up to the female and looked around as she stood behind the femme just watching carefully. She wouldn't dare do anything till the femme noticed her first.
Wishing you were somehow here again . . . Wishing you were somehow near . . . Sometimes it seemed, if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here . . .
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Post by [Taboo. on Oct 12, 2010 21:41:20 GMT -5
[bg=000000][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true]It was too quiet here, eerily so… Taboo didn’t like it at all. There didn’t seem to be any life in the area she was in, as if all the creatures had been listening in on her thoughts and had decided to give the emotional essa some breathing room. She in distress, weathering an internal typhoon, and the creatures of the plains knew to keep their distance.
Smart animals, she thought, but couldn’t help the sense of loneliness that crept up her spine, settling in her chest and the pit of her stomach. There was only so much you could lie--especially to yourself--before the truth broke free. Taboo didn’t want to be alone, didn’t want to have to run anymore, she longed for comfort, for someone to understand… but fear the weakness that others would see in her. She was beta, damn it! She needed, more than anything to be strong, for the pack’s sake.
That’s the thought that allowed her to smash the loneliness down, to chain it back into the cage with sorrow, heartache, nostalgia, hope… with Lorelei. She would never be released, not fully. She had given up, receded back into the confines of the fem’s mind and that was exactly where she was going to stay. Taboo existed now, she needed to learn that.
Auds pulled back, the sound of something else approaching meeting her ears. Her head turned to look over her shoulder, noticing a vix that had managed to get too close without Taboo noticing. Gracefully, the betess turned to face her, bright flaxen optics lazily caressed the other’s frame.
Pretty… She thought a little sadly. The way the off-white color of her belly, back legs, and face licked the redish purple color of her back was a beautiful contrast. Ebony markings looks almost tribal. Taboo had to admit, she was a little jealous. She wasn’t back looking herself, but the curse that came with such colors was annoyingly persistent.
The breeze drifted between them and the crimson dame took in the other’s scent. There was a sweet scent that screamed female… but… what was that? There was something else that she couldn’t quite place… the recognition made her heart stutter and her breath hitch… Nahani? No, that couldn’t be, not unless… Her eyes downcast briefly, realizing that she had no right to feel anything; Nahani did not belong to her. No one belonged to her and she to no one else…
”Hello… umm… do I know you? You smell a little familiar.” She ventured, knowing that it must seem strange of her to just stand there and stare.
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Post by §Tank§ on Oct 17, 2010 14:27:45 GMT -5
[bg=14252f][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true] Cheis flicked her tail slightly as she looked at the crimson female that stood just before her. she folded her ears back and then some what lowered her head slightly. She could smell the power that the female held. She was part of the pack, she was a high ranking female. She looked down and then heard the female speak. She narrowed her eyes, the wind swirled around her and the other female that was before her. The scent was haunting to cheis. She stepped back and then turned her head slightly as she whined. Nahani, It cant be, she has my brother's scent all over her she flicked her ears and then took a deep breath. Cheis wasn't much of a talker but she was spoken to by a high ranking wolf. She had to answer, she looked back to where she came from.
She should have ran when she got the chance. She sighed and then folded her ears back against her head and shook her head "No, I am a passer byer, And i don't know what you mean" she said as she stood there. There was no way that she could let this female know that she was Nahani's little sister. She was nothing like her brother, she was more caring and easy going and not aggressive in anyway. she licked her lips and then turned her head. She wanted to run, she wanted to get away from the female, but it was useless now. She had spoken and she was sure that the female would want more information. She looked back at her and flicked her tail. she was very uneasy at the moment and it was slowly showing.
Cheis' ice blue eyes seemed to show nothing more then fear and uncertainty. She lowered her head and made sure to keep her frame lower then the other females. She knew how to act around high ranking females unlike her brother. She then whined and sighed. She missed her brother dearly. He was the only thing she had left of her mother. She turned back to the female and then softly spoke. "I am looking for someone" She said as she stood there. if this female had her brother scent all over her then she might know where he was. She wanted to find him and catch up and feel whole again.
Tag: Taboo Word Count: 411 Muse: eh ok i guess Status: Complete Notes:so cute
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Post by [Taboo. on Oct 25, 2010 21:04:10 GMT -5
[bg=000000][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true]There was a moment of silence when the world seemed to drift passed the two oblivious females; it was surreal, like a dream world. Any moment now Taboo would have herself awoken by a curious pack member, a skirmish between Tank and Nahani, or to a falling nightmare… but nothing came. The world continued to turn around them and time refused to wait. This was reality and at some point the crimson vix was going to have to face it.
”Oh, I’m sorry…” Her ears twitched, she resisted the urge to pull them back in disappointment… why would she be disappointed?! She should be angry, she should feel betrayed, she would be upset somehow, but not disappointed. Such a feeling at a time like this was just crazy. “I must be confusing you with someone else… it’s just, you smell a little like someone I know.”
What would happen if this she-wolf did end up knowing Nahani? What would Taboo do? What could she do? The brute had infiltrated the walls surrounding her heart, broken down the barricades and settled within all in the course of a few pathetic days. But he didn’t care, how could he? The crimson femme had a problem, an addiction; she fell in love far too quickly to brutes who didn’t give a fuck… all she was doing was setting herself up for disaster, but she couldn’t help it.
Shaking her head lightly to clear her thoughts, the dame decided she was allowing her cool Taboo mask to slip off and the frail, pitiful little Lorelei was starting to shine through. Was that what she wanted, to go back to being Lorelei?! To weep and sob over tragedies that she had no control over?! No! Taboo was better than that, there wasn’t a man in the world that would blemish her beautiful lie, flaw her perfect mask.
Fully in control of herself again, Taboo plastered a blank, mildly inquisitive look on her face as she registered that the other fem had spoken to her. ”Looking for someone?” She repeated. It was unknown to her why the other would let slip this information as first. What could Taboo have done? Was she supposed to offer help? Guidance? But then it occurred to her… ”You think I know who you’re seeking?” she asked, a motherly smile spreading across her maw, “Who are you looking for? I’ll do my best to help.”
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Post by cheis on Oct 28, 2010 18:09:45 GMT -5
[bg=14252f][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true] Cheis' dark purple ears flicked back as she stood there. She wasn't sure what was going to happen but things couldn't get any worse could they? She sighed and then took a deep breath and allowed it to escape. her ears flicked up as the sound of a crunching leaf reached her ears, she quickly turned and bared her fangs and let out an aggressive growl. She didn't know what it was but she wasn't going to let it just attack her. she then heard the words come out of the female's mouth Oh, I'm sorry Of course your sorry, everyone is always sorry she flicked her dark purple and black tail back and forth. She was tired of others saying sorry, it was getting old, and rather irritating. She turned her head and looked towards where the red female had come from. He must be that way
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[/i] she thought as she stood there. She then heard the female speak about Ches being confused. She narrowed her eyes at the red female. She wasn't confused, she knew her brothers scent. it wasn't hard to miss really, she shook her Head and then finally sat down and curled her tail around her paws. "No, i am not mistaken. You have his scent on you, i know it anywhere." she said as she sat there. Soon the wind picked up and the scent of her brother nahani got stronger. she tensed up and threw her head up into the sky and allowed the wind to dance around her as she sat very still. he was close, but where was he hiding? She looked around and then sighed. He wasn't any where around this area, he had to be some where else. He always seemed to be a few steps ahead of Ches. she then turned back to the female that was seeming to have a problem. Cheis sat there and just watched her for a moment Then she spoke. Cheis' ears went back. Yes she was looking for someone, didn't she say that a while back. She growled slightly and then smiled as she said that she would help. At least this female was willing to help, everyone else just told her to get lost and give up. she parted her lips and spoke "My brother, He is orange and black with orange eyes, He also has white X's on his paws. I call him Nani. But i think he has every one call him Nahani"[/i] she said as she sat there. she was just hoping that the female would point her in the right way. She looked around and then sighed some as she began to miss her brother even more. Tag: Taboo Word Count: 448 Muse: OK kinda Status: Complete Notes:this will be fun [/size][/blockquote] [/color][/td][/tr][/table][/center]
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